Od okam\u017eiku, kdy jsme se s mu\u017eem rozhodli, \u017ee u\u017e bychom r\u00e1di m\u011bli d\u00edt\u011b, p\u0159i\u0161la osm\u00e1 menstruace. Jsem zase smutn\u00e1 a tr\u00e1p\u00ed m\u011b, \u017ee to nevy\u0161lo. U\u017e jsem s t\u00edm ale tak n\u011bjak po\u010d\u00edtala a jsem smutn\u00e1 o n\u011bco m\u00e9n\u011b ne\u017e d\u0159\u00edv. C\u00edt\u00edm, \u017ee se za\u010d\u00edn\u00e1m pomalu vnit\u0159n\u011b smi\u0159ovat s t\u00edm, \u017ee to nem\u00e1m pod kontrolou a \u017ee miminko zat\u00edm nebude. Sou\u010dasn\u011b s t\u00edm, jak to p\u00ed\u0161u, mi po t\u011ble b\u011b\u017e\u00ed l\u00edtost a derou se mi do o\u010d\u00ed slzy. Je\u0161t\u011b nejsem tak \u00fapln\u011b sm\u00ed\u0159en\u00e1. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Vn\u00edm\u00e1m tu l\u00edtost a nech\u00e1v\u00e1m ji prot\u00e9kat sv\u00fdm t\u011blem…<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Posledn\u00ed dobou ale pozoruji, \u017ee m\u016fj n\u00e1hled na to, \u017ee miminko zat\u00edm nep\u0159i\u0161lo, pomalou\u010dku m\u011bn\u00ed. Po\u0159\u00e1d to chci a po\u0159\u00e1d se pro to sna\u017e\u00edm n\u011bco ud\u011blat. U\u017e to ale m\u00e9n\u011b vn\u00edm\u00e1m jako svoji chybu. M\u00e1m st\u00e1le v\u00edc a v\u00edc pochopen\u00ed pro to, \u017ee miminko m\u00e1 vlastn\u00ed pl\u00e1ny a ty se s t\u011bmi m\u00fdmi nemusej\u00ed kr\u00fdt. Je to jako bych si p\u0159\u00e1la, aby p\u0159i\u0161el na n\u00e1v\u0161t\u011bvu n\u011bkdo, kdo si to ale zat\u00edm p\u0159edstavuje jinak. To se st\u00e1v\u00e1. J\u00e1 m\u016f\u017eu jen d\u00e1t najevo, \u017ee jsem p\u0159ipraven\u00e1 a po\u010dkat a\u017e ten druh\u00fd p\u0159ijde. I kdy\u017e je mi to t\u0159eba l\u00edto, proto\u017ee se u\u017e t\u011b\u0161\u00edm.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
P\u0159em\u00edt\u00e1m i nad t\u00edm, co by tomu m\u00e9mu tr\u00e1pen\u00ed \u0159\u00edkala m\u00e1 du\u0161e? Jak by se j\u00ed asi l\u00edbilo, \u017ee m\u011b n\u011bco tak n\u00e1dhern\u00e9ho a z\u00e1zra\u010dn\u00e9ho, jako je po\u010det\u00ed d\u00edt\u011b, sou\u017e\u00ed a tr\u00e1p\u00ed? Jak by se j\u00ed l\u00edbilo, \u017ee se boj\u00edm a \u017ee jsem netrp\u011bliv\u00e1? Co by \u0159\u00edkala na to, \u017ee nejsem spokojen\u00e1 s jej\u00edmi pl\u00e1ny?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pomalu se uzdravuji a dost\u00e1v\u00e1m se skrze smutek a truchlen\u00ed k nad\u011bji. Proto\u017ee, jak \u0159ekl V\u00e1clav Havel, „nad\u011bje nen\u00ed to p\u0159esv\u011bd\u010den\u00ed, \u017ee n\u011bco dob\u0159e dopadne, ale jistota, \u017ee m\u00e1 n\u011bco smysl – bez ohledu na to, jak to dopadne.“<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dr\u017ete se!<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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Od okam\u017eiku, kdy jsme se s mu\u017eem rozhodli, \u017ee u\u017e bychom r\u00e1di m\u011bli d\u00edt\u011b, p\u0159i\u0161la osm\u00e1 menstruace. Jsem zase smutn\u00e1 a tr\u00e1p\u00ed m\u011b, \u017ee to nevy\u0161lo. U\u017e jsem s t\u00edm ale tak n\u011bjak po\u010d\u00edtala a jsem smutn\u00e1 o n\u011bco m\u00e9n\u011b ne\u017e d\u0159\u00edv. C\u00edt\u00edm, \u017ee se za\u010d\u00edn\u00e1m pomalu vnit\u0159n\u011b smi\u0159ovat s t\u00edm, \u017ee to nem\u00e1m pod… <\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"neve_meta_sidebar":"","neve_meta_container":"","neve_meta_enable_content_width":"","neve_meta_content_width":0,"neve_meta_title_alignment":"","neve_meta_author_avatar":"","neve_post_elements_order":"","neve_meta_disable_header":"","neve_meta_disable_footer":"","neve_meta_disable_title":"","footnotes":""},"categories":[8,7],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-197","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-kdyz-miminko-neprichazi","category-pred-pocetim"],"yoast_head":"\n